Expect to feel various emotions
Experiencing the death of your spouse will get to your head, heart, and spirit, so if you’re going through various emotions, I want you to know that it is normal. It’s part of your grief work.
Why do we call it work? Because it takes a great amount of energy and effort to heal. Confusion, disorientation, fear, guilt, relief, and anger are only a couple of the emotions you might experience.
At times, these emotions might follow each other within a short period of time. Sometimes, they can occur simultaneously. As weird as these emotions can get, they are only natural and healthy. Allow yourself to learn from them.
Find a support system
Reaching out to your closest loved ones and accepting their support can be difficult, especially if you hurt so much. But the most compassionate self-action you can take is to actually rely on your friends and relatives and let them be your support system.
Spend time with people who will “walk with you”, not “in front of”, or “behind” in your journey. You could also find a specific support group that you could attend, as there’s no substitute for learning from others who might have gone through something similar.